LOVE is never what it seems

For you out there that think love is never what it seems you maybe right. I like to think of it as that due to my current situation in the whole love ordeal. Love is different in everyone's eyes but in mine love can be cruel, deceiving, jealous, happy, joyful, and pretty much anything that comes to mind on a daily basis when I think of the possibility of love. What you have to know about me if anything at all is the reason I am making this blog is to lash out my crazy love emotions. I don't think there's love emotions present in me but I will just call them that because quite frankly I don't think I have ever really been in love. I was even married and even then love was never there just the illusion of it.
I have been through a lot of relationships. Some good, but like most bad. I have been in ones that I will never forget and some that make me down right sick to my stomach thinking about. There are some I would love to forget but can't. When I mention these relationships I am talking about all kinds some that there was never even a title.
I got married when I was twenty-one and now divorced at twenty-two. God has taught me a lot of things within that year but most of all be myself and never lose myself even if there a commitment to be made in a marriage. I broke away because I quickly found out without love there cannot be a strong marriage. Basically a loveless marriage is just a sunken hole filled with regret. He was never a bad man I just needed to be me for once and to open my heart to more. I never said that it was easy getting a divorce it hurts me everyday I hurt someone, but I need to find me. I did not want to endure a loveless marriage for the rest of my life.